Food for thought

Love's a baby that grows up wild
And he don't do what you want him to
Love ain't nobody's angel-child
And he won't pay any mind to you
One man gave me his diamond stud
And I won't give him a cigarette
One man treats me like I was mud
And what I got, dat man can get
Dat's love, dat's love, dat's love, dat's love
You go for me and I'm taboo
But if you're hard to get, I'll go for you
And if I do, then you are through
that's my baby, that's the end of you
So take your cue
Don't say I didn't tell you true
I told you truly, if I love you
Dat's the end of you
When your love bird decides to fly
There ain't no door that you can close
She just pecks you a quick good-bye
And flicks de salt from her tail and goes
If you listen then you get taught
And here's your lesson for today
If I chose you, then you get caught
But once I got you, I go away
Dat's love

Eternal Sunshine.. you know the rest

i have come to the conclusion that im too quote 'deep' for the average man. my expectations are far more than tall dark and handsome with a nice smile and good humor. that is something i can no longer simply settle for. though i may be a whole 19 years old i think i have had my share of relationships to recognize what i do and don't want in a partner.


i need more than that; a homie lover and friend. i need an all in one ---> you cannot be my lover if were not friends cannot be friends if we're not homies and lastly cannot be lovers if not homies. it's all quite circular.

i have ideas and insight on TOO many things and will not settle for a a mediocre conversation about what you did today and what your interests are. i see no use in that sort of small talk. I want a man who wants to know what is going on inside of my head and heart while i wonder and gradually learn what is going on in his. i need a man with intellect and opinions, a basic philosophy on life and love is all i really ask. I need someone who i can vibe with while listening to music, not someone who can tell me the most played song on the radio. i need a companion who can accompany and feel music with me as i let it take me to places only music can. i need an assertive aggressive lover and leader who knows what when and how they want it and is not afraid of a strong woman in and out the sheets. I need a man who knows intimacy and is eager to share with me all that they hold to be so personal. i need a man who wants to show me love and not just spit out I-LOVE-YOU in the blink of an eye without thoughtful consideration of the strong impact those words can have on a person. i need a man with ambition and aspirations to make that 6 figure (or whatevie) and not settle for the job that is getting him by for the time being. i need supporter in what i do with my life and someone who is ready to join me in my journey of life while growing together emotionally and spiritually. i need laughter along with true happiness, i can only be so happy alone which is fine for right now but i want.. no need that close bond with another being to open up to and be passionate with, a soul mate. everyone yearns for affection love but im looking for that special affection, that "there's no one else I'd rather be with, your my everything" affection. and the list goes on-----> ------> but most importantly, i need a MAN not some little ass boy which thinks he knows what he wants i don't need that 'almost there' guy still working out his kinks no yisery, i need a man. straight up


this may be asking for a little too much lol could a man like this even exist??.... of course he can .... i met him once, unfortunately it was a brief crossing of paths that could never be forgotten but a bitter sweet memory ill tuck deep down inside. but what i figure is, if there is one there must be another or many others. right?

so i will not start looking for this ideal of a man, i will let life and God take me to where i need to be and will someday cross paths with another one of these special but rare breed of a man.

Made a Date With Divinity

For those who don't know me, i jam atmosphere probably 85% of the time. I cannot call myself a veteran of their music, actually i have just recently been introduced to them in the past year or so and i must say i cannot get enough of them.. talk about talking about REAL SHIT i mean speaking that straight from the soul real shit. All of their music you can hear that is all comes directly from experience and it just bares so much emotion. It's so powerful to me, people often say you can feel the music and i can say there are some songs i come across from them and i can just break down and cry as if they were speaking right to my heart. When you can find an artist or artists who can do that KEEP EM. one of my favorite songs by them is the one below from the Happy Mess on their album Sad Clown Bad Spring 12. i know everyone can relate to that one song you hear and the beat is on FIYAH and the lyrics are exactly parallel with each other.




PEEP THEM: http://www.myspace.com/atmosphere



My musical rants are done for today, B-T-DUB it's saturday you i expect everyone to get buck det drunk get high and have regretable nights they wont remember on sunday, were young so get it crackin.... My night will consist of standing in heels that dont fit escorting rich people to their soon to be overly priced dinners.

Ex's and Oh's

Dopeness

"...my life u could not live it for the things that ive seen have been too damn explicit but soon u will get it on a cd wit some credits ill provide my grind mixed wit no edits they say they dont want me when im fucked up and forgotten until i rise up amongst the evil tryna stop him slow down bitch my money is wut im clockin im tick tockin once i start i aint stoppin such bullshit that my soul deal wit when my rooms dimlit i pray to God to help wit my endeavors in any kind of weather hoes be pleather fake so i erase em out my sim do u wanna be him, think twice ud commit suicide tryna read my mind…” - Kid Cudi

As i just doing my regular web browsing trying to kill time before church (pause)... yes church, i came across this. Dope shit if you ask me, spoke to me directly, there is no need in ranting it's all pretty self explanatory if you ask me. holler for a dollER im off to praise Jesus maybe find some answers and inner peace =)

Est. 1987

Coming into college i would have never guessed 1) i would be where i am 2)EVER join a sorority. the thought of being around a whole bunch of bimbo females discussing how drunk we got the night before just wasn't my thizzle. Entering Greek like i learned that there are so many misconceptions of sororities and fraternities none in which i will get into detail BUT, for a fact it's not at all what you see in the movies. It's very difficult and requires serious dedication but is all worth it. I crossed into the most WONDERFUL organization Kappa Delta Chi Sorority, Inc. on April 24,2009 proudly after an entire semester work .....extremely hard work.

i had never worked towards something that i could call my own. Ive always been the one who somehow magically 'got by' in everything. i had never nor did i have intentions on committing to an entire process which in the end has made my a better, wiser, stronger, well-rounded individual. I don't speak much about my sorority and what it really means to me. Most of my friends just know that im usually busy and doing sisterly stuff. But on the flip side i have found a genuinely love for my sisterhood and the lovely ladies that make us what we are. Though there are times that i literally want to pull my hair our i promise you having a bond with sister and knowing they will be there for you whenever you need them is priceless. i wouldn't change anything i have done in the past year because i am truly happy with where i am. I credit KDCHI for so many positive things that have come my way and i can honestly say that if i had never joined the organization, i would be back in Sierra Vista being a worthless slump on a log.

Tonight we won at the ASU Greek awards Chapter of the Year for the 2nd year in a row. i am so proud of my sisters and my sisterhood. I was always told ... " There is a reason your KDCHI" and now i know exactly what they were talking about. 10 long weeks for a life time of memories, sisters, and friendship. As corny as i sounds (trust me i know) i love it, i love the sisterly bond! I have met so many people through the org and have made great friendships. This is defiantly i different side of me that most dont get to see but i'd thought i'd share this with ya'll =)

1...9.........8...7... TOO CUTE TOO CUTE

Hippie Worthy Thoughts

"....And if I asked you about love you'd probably quote me a sonnet. But you've never looked at a woman and been totally vulnerable. Known someone could level you with her eyes. Feeling like! God put an angel on earth just for you...who could rescue you from the depths of hell. And you wouldn't know what it’s like to be her angel and to have that love for her to be there forever. Through anything. Through cancer. You wouldn't know about sleeping sittin’ up in a hospital room for two months holding her hand because the doctors could see in your eyes that the term visiting hours don't apply to you. You don't know about real loss, because that only occurs when you love something more than you love yourself...."-Good Will Hunting

Easily the best monologue in a movie. I was like 14 when i first watched it and this scene stuck too well. THIS is what im tryna feel like. Someone once told me "i don't know if i can survive in this world, all i want to do is love and make music" I honestly in my heart wish everyone in this world felt like that. Love&Music. What else do you need aside from the basic necessities of life. Everyone wants to be loved. It's an innate quality all humans have in them. From birth their attachment to their mothers carry on into child and adulthood. The need to be wanted and cared for. So damnit,

WHERE IS THE LOVE?

Back in What??... action

I saw this picture and just fell in love with it. im back on this blog business, yes. I still don't know how to follow anyone so forgive me. I am creeping though without the official title. Today is Valentines day like my boy said, it's a made up day for people to be nice to each other. I believe this, Ive never really had a Valentines day nor good or bad. this day for lovers has always landed on the most impromptu moments of my life. So for me, today is just another day in the life of. I did treat myself though, to a tattoo that is =) i'll post a picture later but is says 'do what you love' in Spanish. This quote literally spoke to me one really terrible night, i looked up at this hippie van and in big ass letters it just said; DO WHAT YOU LOVE..... a sign to say the least. Since then i try my best to keep that quote in the back of my mind lol now it's on my fuggin body i wont be forgetting it anytime soon.

So what's been going on in my life? WELL the last two weeks have been quite eventful to say the least. I have so kindly reminded to keep people at a distance. My conclusion: let someone get close enough and if the possibility of them hurting you is present they will do so one way or another intentionally or not. This is what i would like to call a learning experience. Enough of ALL that. I got a new job in scottsdale makin mula baby! im officially addicted to these tattoos i don't doubt that i will be tatted up fully by april. Next piece: rose vein down my back, the foundation of an entire back piece =) im VERY excited for all this new ink. Some much needed traveling will come too; LA,Dallas,Jacksonville, NYC, and Chicago are my to priority for various reasons. This blogging is back in action for the long hall if i don't have my twitter or bf to hear me vent bitch and moan imma just let it out on here. i don't care if i entertain anyone i just need to release what is going on in my head. You ever feel like you have so much to say but no where of no one to say it too?? WELP that is yours truly. Im gonna holler at some homework for the night.

Happy Valentines Day Love Birds