i suck

now i usually would never say this about myself but right now, i suck haha
im supposed to be doing a paper that i have put off an entire semester and of course i have found my way to just write about how im NOT doing it. but honestly the topic is cultural diversity and the ageing family.. who is really trying to write a paper about that? not me. so im killing time until i get to go to senior goodbyes. my big is graduating the semester,im so proud of her . I feel that she exemplifies everything a woman should be. strong smart and doesn't take shit from anyone. its find of funny when i think about her because apparently in the beginning no one really knew where to put me and i ended up with her. little did anyone know we would clicked. like ClICKED. im so happy to call my big sis and she has helped me through alot this past year. on another nooote

the happy sunday to-do-list:

get this paper done

do senior goodbyes

cry a tsenior goodbyes

go to work by 5

maintain my sanity till 10

come back to my house, eat cereal

try to do this paper

and sleep after trying to do the paper

whether or not the paper gets done, there is PROOF that i had intentions on finishing it. for now though im going to find others things to distract me so i can put if off... and i still suck

xoxoxo

plane ride

didnt think you'd come through, the smallest gift is revealing more than you may want. a fallacy? maybe but l take my chances for you mystery is worth it risk. i hope, i think.
Prove me wrong for once he may show different and make me smile that smile that an only been seen in true expressions of admiration. small steps we must take the caution in my heart restrains me from spilling into our bubble. i hold back and wait like a snake preying on its next meal. but everything i do ill handle with care. take you as you do me let you in and share with you everything no one knows. Help me and guide me to were WE need to be. wrapped up and tied up with this new infatuation i slowly being blinded but somehow can still see clearly. all at the same time. i'd hate to say you different because for all i know our just the same in a different way. time will tell? is this serendipitous crossin meant to just another encounter. if only someone could give me an answer. but that's how is usually goes, unanswered upon fate. so fate im with you ill walk your road though you haven't led me in the est paths before i still have hope.... and for you, keep me close i won't go anywhere

Cudder Style

Kid Cudi is dopeness at it's finest. He's been around for a minute and as yet to get old to me. I can still jam Stoner Charm like it's the newest ish out. i don't feel like i need to speak much about him or hype him up because his music speaks for itself. his delivery is so different and unique. His style lyrics and sound is a nice breathe of fresh air.
"Man on The Moon"
They can't comprehend
They even come close to understanding him
I guess if I was born they would love me more
Guess if I was simple in the mind
Everything would be fine
Maybe if I was jerk to girls
Instead of being nice and speakin kind words
But then maybe it would be ok to say then
I wasn't a good guy to begin with

Randomness for the day. ive been jammin that song all day long

Happy Monday loves =)

Guilty Pleasures

Andre 3000: not only is he lyrically so incredibly talented he is oddly unique and one of a kind... not to mention so so SO fine





Adrian Brody: Speechless! Literally! the nose is the deal maker



SLIM THUG: My thug from around the way it's gotta be the fact that he reeks testosterone or maybe because he's from Texas either way slim thug=my boo




Fiona Apple: They say the grass is always greener on the other side.. and for this chick, i'd be willing to see how green lol






Gerard Butler: all i have to say is if YOU didn't fall in love after 300 your noggin is fuggged up!




Bob Marley: the music man. He is why i love dreds his music is soothing to the soul his words were empowering and he loved herb, you can't go wrong. peep that smile!! =D

Jay Hernandez: you are beautiful...crazy beautiful that is.

absence!

so ive been on this overly emotion t.i.p lately up until about 15 hours ago. i woke up this morning and thought to my self... FOR WHAT, FOR WHO?. i couldn't come up with an answer, no reason to be all mopey sad and pissed off. im off that along with everything else that causes me negative vibes.

so where have i been?! the past couple posts have been reflective of whats been going but where have i really been? UPDAAATES:

Work: Yesterday was the day when you realize you don't really like your job your just there for the money. ah for the love of money. The people there are so amazing i love them, but the management is uhhh.. sad. clientele is typical nothing new. Im not actively looking for a new job but the second something comes up im OWT. any job openings???

School: school is cool, and your cool if your in school. classes are there, neutral. im not gonna hit that 4.0 but im doing good enough. the only real motivation to continue to do well in school is KDCHI and the fact that i would probably shoot myself if i had to move back to sierra vista. I take personal growth and marriage classes where we talk about our feelings and ish which beats doing math problems and business courses. Some pointless environment class that i write most of my blogs in and a social work class, the professor (or lack there of ) is a nimrod. point is: im over this semester i wan the fall to come where i can be more involved blah blah

Summer: OMG! dear blog and readers im so fuggin excited for this summer. kicking it off with my ssiters and big going to LA for a few days to do... nothing. just kick it by the beach spend money and eat. i love the city i need to be there. i move into my new apartment which i have to myself for two whole months and i plan on taking like a month off of work to do nothing. for once in my life im not taking summer school and im gonna juice that shiet! i have absolutely no obligations to anyone or anything this summer. i do plan on going to new mexico for conference, maybe not for the conference part but to see sisters, holla! im going back to texas next week and again for the summer. Hitting us SA ATX and Houston varies reasons varies people. it will be live, yes.

Personal: that's a secret... of course i can let your mind wonder through my posts whats going on over here. i did get my tattoo fixed the other day it's officially doope and i love it! next piece: ankh on my right side then im gradually covering the whole back. whoo hooo! i can't wait to move, i think the next month or so is going to be very interesting fun and new. i miss my parents more than anything it's funny how when i was in high school i would find any way to get out of the house. While now all i want to do is go see them. My sister is going to be up here in August, she is growing up =) now THAT will be interesting, stay tuned lol

Love: Fuggit


that is all for now, i had a blog itch! i hope everyone had a fabulous weekend


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F a u l t s

by Sara Teasdale


They came to tell your faults to me,
They named them over one by one;
I laughed aloud when they were done,
I knew them all so well before, —
Oh, they were blind, too blind to see
Your faults had made me love you more.