May Nights

i can't sleep twitter and facebook get old
even the stumble button is starting to bore me
i should be asleep my parents are gonna wanna kick it in the morning lol
i still have to move in my bed in the new apt! oh yeah that is starting to come together nicely
the summer has officially begun =)
Cali was nothing short of amazing turns out i suck in traffic
EFF you 101 110 and 10 too many 1's and 0's for me
i went entirely broke and will be paying off the trip with the next couple paychecks
lol im tryna go somewhere else this summer, east coast? maybe back to the south
cali is a givin!
okay this blog did the trick! im tired and about to pass out
just a short ramble



ex's and oh's

Part 2

he is i and we are us
has me tongue tied twisted in disguise
that's not me i mean us are we them or an impostor of love
we must be...not he nor i
the lustful measures we take ways cant be real
real in the sense of true
us as one is more that he plus i equaling we
these words can't scratch the surface of the we
instead they tell a lie i wish were absolute
she yearns for truth but still fully aware of the present
them could be us but he must allow her to his heart
he is i and we are us

More Stumbling

word

him and her

you have my mind-on some other shit
not my heart or emotions but my mind
provoking every concrete thought, moral, and belief i have
to the point of frustration i still am-fascinated
i want to know you-ideas and mission
i want to know your heart-love and passion
danger is what i see before me but what else would you except
a risk taker? why not
challenge me and i shall prevail
I-DARE-YOU
your bite not nearly as intimidating as your growl
slowly but surly growing fond of the idea "we"
though far fetched but still suggested
an idea it will stay at a standstill
meanwhile, you have my mind-on some other shit

N.Shan & H.Margaret join forces

this blog was suggested by Mr. Naveed Shan http://thingsihateandthingsthataredope.blogspot.com check it out it's hella dope. dope is such an awesome word he and i often use to describe each others thoughts. SO i was asked to do a featuring on things that are and aren't dope. notice the other part of his blog is 'things that i hate'. i am combining fabulous thoughts and brain power to create ...... "THE DOPE/HATE LIST" a little list of random acts and fuckery that are dope and others that i hate.

Dope: spending time with your mom on mother's day. i think this is an appropriate way to start off because of the occasion. it's awesome when you can kick back with mom dukes and let you know how much you appreciate her. i mean she did raise your badass right? so thumbs up to everyone that let their momma know that they care instead of just buy her something and overnighting it to her ( which wouldn't work anyways because mail doesn't come on Sundays.. good job asshole). quality vs. quantity

Hate: Tyra Banks. ive spoken about her a time or two but i really feel like trya has grown at the top of my shit list. im sorry but you can never compare to oprah in talk show hosting or in being a total badass. giving the audience a complete make over doesn't even come close to buying everyone a car. the thing that really gets me about her is that she has a story for EVERYTHING! maybe its just me but i don't feel she can relate to everybody, c'mon now she's freaking tyra banks. and if there is one more show that pumps out a top model i might jump off a cliff. unless my best friend alysha makes the cut this season then ill Tvo that shit every week! but honestly tyra is annoying, loud, too happy, with next to no humor. yet i still find myself watching her show whenever it comes on. well damn.

Dope: summer vacations are definitely on this list. it's a time when you can forget all the bullshit you have going on in your life and just get away. it's also a time where you can spend absurd amounts of money get drunk everyday and not have a care in the world. from the drive to the food friends and memories, taking short noticed summer vacas are fuggin dope. next week some sisters and i are going to la and yes we plan to do nothing. it's gonna be one of those 'wherever the wind takes us' kinds of trips. plus. what happens on vacas stays on vacas!
"except herpes that shit'll come back with you"

Hate: pedestrians. your probably thinking 'where the hell did that come from' but really sit and think about it. when you are on your way to something really important and your about to make that right on red what is standing in your way taking their happy ass time... a PEDESTRIAN. and it's always at the worst times in the world you know? if it's not the guy singing to himself with his ipod literally walking like a snail it's the chick on her cell phone probably whining to her best friend that her boyfriend left her. regardless... they are always in the way. not only that but pedestrians often have the mind set that they have the right away to EVERYTHING.. no little one i am driving a freaking CAR a machine that will snap you into two, imma need you to speed up. i can't wait till we advance in technology and can just all fly or teleport to where we need to be. eh until then i suppose i will have to be late to that meeting and yell back when they try to give me the stink eye.

Real VS. Rude

The definition of what's "real" is so hazy. stop and think to yourself, what's real?... not you or anyone else in this world. we are all flawed beings. some maybe being real that they speak their minds and express how they feel while others may see real as being brutally honest and speaking before thinking with no regard to others feelings. Now are they being real or just rude as fuck? i would like to argue this coined term "real" because i don't think many know what it is nor how to act in a "real" manner. let me not get ahead of myself, yes i have talked piles of shit behind others back and smiling in their face also have said things i didn't mean and have no acted in the most honest way, along with that don't for a second sit back and say you haven't because we are all guilty. but the difference between fake and i is that i realize that i know i am not a perfect being and will own up to what i have done/said with no issue. i may not say things to people's face at times but if they ask i shall tell. simple as that. Those who pride themselves on putting others down either behind their back on in their face are not real they just are mean people. for some talking shit really does make them feel better or hold themselves to a higher regard when they know the other individual will not say anything back. Like the ones who will go out of their way to hurt someone with words or action with spite. im talking about the ones who say they are "over the bullshit and immature things" but continuously talk about how there is bad things and people around them..... sounds like a personally problem you have let everyone know about and still haven't don't anything about. hm. so this makes that person not only rude as fuck, mean, but also an idiot for aired dirty laundry that will not be clean for awhile. this isn't geared towards anyone specifically but merely an observation. i suppose the definition of real can vary from one person to another. so MY definition of real is being yourself and not a chameleon depending on who you are around, it's knowing who you are and what you believe. honesty not mean and assertive not aggressive towards others. it's being aware of what you want need believe despite the influences around you. so what are you .. real or rude?? because there is a difference

Lots-O-Pronouns

so many eyes so may lies
through the highs and the lows, so many eyes so many lies
too many of you's not enough me's
cant you see there's only one of of you...wait who?
you is who like i am me
there is so many eyes telling so many lies
that you can no longer be true- to me and what we cant see through them
their lies hurtful yet affect me, no we, not you, nor him, or them
they'll lie and hide
where's my high to avoid the lows
when no one knows the truth from the lies and deceitful eyes you don't mind bcause we isn't us nor anything at all
i am we and they hurt me