Catch Up

So looks like i have started this trend of blogging hard for a month or so and then falling off of the face of the earth. if that isn't a sign of an up and down life/indecisiveness i don't know what is. I write when im going through shit, this kind of stuff is very therapeutic! But let me catch you up since LA.... ain't shit been happenin and that's a good thing. I'd rather be chillin with and uneventful life during summer then a hectic, stressful, and clutter-filled. so let me just trail off into some random nothing-ness for a bit


On your down time you tend to see a broader view of things you know? You see who is still there even when they don't need to be, What happens when there isn't a set schedule, and what really important when you are not obligated to anything or anyone. My summer has been a huge reflection of all of these things. Just like i expected the one's who say they'll be around have been ghost but surprisingly it's the one's who were always there but never THERE that are the one i have surrounded myself with. It's crazy how friendships can start and end. I guess my point of this is im so happy with the people i have in my life at this point. there is not one bad seed and im incredibly thankful for each and every one of them. they may not know it. and that's okay so if your reading t his chances are you give a fuck about what i have to say and for that i thank you. In the past months i held A LOT of grudges and had plenty of animosity towards sam lex and probably many other things. but i figured... if they wanna be fucked up people... let em be. Just don't keep em around me and ill be straight. i had heard it before, "if i let it affect me it will bring me lower and drive me crazy" HA funny thing about all that is it's SO MUCH easier said than done. so i can't say i have forgiven these individuals and what they have done to me but i have simply said FUCK EM and eliminate their existence from my clear view. I have my family friends and sisters. THEY are the people who keep me going. especially my mom and dad they have not the slightest clue what they mean to me. i mean im sure they have an idea but i could not for the life of me express to them my gratitude and appreciation for everything they do for me.... in retrospect i would be nothing without them.. ok now that i have shared my academy award speech. lemmi just say YA'LL ALL BEAUTIFUL INSIDE AND OUT. THAT'S WHY YOUR IN MY LIFE.



peace and love ladies and gentleman.