You know who you aaaare... okay so I'm in my head jamming to superstar-Usher (high school classic) but this little piece is dedicated to YOU.. yea YOU. the bored yet intrigued individual on the other side of the screen reading this. Yesterday i got text from a dear friend asking me to change my background so they could read my stuff on their phone (which i did lol just for them). It hit me right then... people actually read this shit, my shit, my writings, my life. It was a pretty cool thought. Every now and they ill get something on facebook or someone randomly tell me "yeah i read your blog blah blah blah" in my head i could only think "SWEET".
So i guess what I'm trying to get at is that i appreciate you and all your feedback they ya'll give me. This thing is my outlet when I'm on the verge off breakdown all the way to when I'm happy and gotta let the world know about it. But anywho, I'm glad i can entertain and give you a good random read throughout the day. This is even for the ones who read just to pick and ridicule what i do and say... appreciate yall too, not really BUT you still click on the link and read so you're lowkey giving me promo too ;)
back to the basics:
Summer is slowly but surely winding down and i couldn't be happier. I spend an estimated 6 days a week at my job in front of this computer, you'd think I'd blog way more than i do. Stacking paper never felt so good with no strings attached im FEELIN it yadig? My baby came in the mail the other day, my mac book pro. I will name her too DONTJUDGE me i've been trapped in the pc world for too long i have finally found reality. i spend most nights to myself not even in my head just chillin enjoying my apt and trees <3
My most recent bump in the road is the future. i figure I've spent so much time trying to understand the past that i have missed out on the present and haven't even given thought to what might be ahead. So in my journey of embrace the now I'm left with the question of the future "the hell you gonna do" my answer: NOT A DAMN CLUE i have so many aspirations and things on my to do list that if i fulfilled all of them i might miss out on other things like relationship, steady job, home, kids?? (YIKES) but if i go that route i wont be able to do what i really want. See my dilemma? all in all i want it all, literally all. So does that make me selfish or a go-getter. Ahhh it's a never ending cycle. On the other hand I'm only 19 so what the fuck am i really even trippin on right? I have school paid for, a job, apartment, wonderful sisters, friends, and family. Why do i spend all this time trying to figure out what is already planned out for me. I think it's just that i don't like that thought of a set path. I want it to be my own path with my decisions/mistakes along the way. Ironically i like structure. hahaha it's a never ending story
my boss is looking at me all crazy so looks like my rants and raves have been cute short
ya'll are amazing! i love you dearly
ex's and oh's its friiiiiday
I know exactly what you mean, does it make you selfish but then its like who else is going to be selfish for me? Its my life, well in your case, yours... Just remember this
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-Abraham Lincoln.
That's posted at one of the girls desks at my work, it inspires me each time I read it.
victoria you are truly amazing and inspirational
ReplyDeletethis makes my heart happy :)
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